Poem: Brain on Fire

Apr 23

Lost myself overnight…

I know you can’t see it, but if you look, can you see the terror in my eyes?

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I’m still in here, can’t you see?

I’m under attack

All I see is black

It’s taken my speech

It’s taken my memory

I’m no longer me, I’m changed

As a mood swing takes over my brain

Not sleeping for days on end

Everything I’ve ever loved is disappearing

Spasms, it’s controlling my limbs

Seizures, oh God, how will I live?

Hallucinations, I’m scared of what I might do

Psychosis, where am I?

Who are you?

Catatonic.

Behind my eyes, I scream for help, can you hear?

I want to die day after day

Even as I’m like this, I love you my dear

I only hope I can show you in any small way

Crazy. I’m losing myself

Am I crazy?

I’m not a liar

My brains on fire

-Giusiana

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