A note about MCAS

Why must my stomach stop digesting food randomly? Why does my body decide that every aspect of the world is my enemy?

A guessing game. Russian roulette of life.  This food was fine yesterday, but now when I eat it it will kill me? 

Trigger my throat to close and body to break out in hives and me to lose consciousness and have a seizure?

Last night's leftovers would make a good lunch, but today they caused my heart to race and fingernails to turn blue

Yesterday I spent the day outside, tomorrow the sun will cover my body in hives… even my own tears burn my face 

How can I prepare for something so unknown? Never knowing if I’ll be okay. Nothing is safe

My grandmother's body decided that her own saliva was the enemy, is that my fate?

-Giusiana

When we aren’t healed..

If you’re chronically ill, and tend to run in Christian circles, you’ve probably been told that you should be grateful for your illness, you shouldn’t be upset that there is no cure because God is going to use us without being healed.

But after those same people pray for us and ask for healing, they ask “So are you feeling better yet?”, And when we say no, when still sick, they get upset. They tell us that we lack faith or we don’t truly want to be healed.

Yes, God can heal. I’ve seen things that can only be explained by a miracle, He does heal. But no, He doesn’t always heal. There is no guarantee of healing.

For those who pray for a disabled person and they aren’t healed: you immediately resort to blaming the person, saying they must not have faith or they want to remain sick, what does that say of Job? Was his faith not real? Did he not want to be relieved of his suffering?

As believers we are not guaranteed healing, in fact, the only thing that is certain for us in this lifetime is that we will suffer. We can believe and have the strongest faith and still not be healed.

Maybe I won’t get better. In all probability I won’t. But I can use my pain to encourage others, to let them know they’re not alone.

2 Corinthians 1:3-5 - Praise be to the… God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort that we ourselves receive from God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.

Job 13:15 - Though He slay me, yet I will trust in Him.

Romans 8:18 - For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.

Psalm 119:71 - It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I might learn your statutes.

John 16:33 - I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.

Psalm 73:26 - My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.